st4rf1sh
11-08-2001, 03:13 AM
todae iz my dearie's birthdae...well not exactly my dearie but...*sigh* perhaps i should tell u my story frm the beginning...
well u see...there's tiz guy tat i haf a crush on early tiz year... erm...let's see...we sat together in clz...we hang around each other alot(as in play a fool) n we also exchange letters...at first i told myself to treat him as a fren onli coz i noe tat it's impossible for me to get him to luv me...at most...i can onli admire him...so on n so forth...den as we exchange more letters...he began to turn mushy...he started asking abt my past luv affairs...wat type of guys i go for n stuffs like he miss me whenever i'm away frm skool...maybe u dun see the mushiness n all but the fact is tat tings grown verli differently as time goes by...den we started confessing our luv for each other...n we developed such a great fondness tat we are practically inseparable...we realli cant seem to live a minute without having each other anywhere at sight... phone calls were made n blah blah...we did everiting tat a couple...except for making luv...actualli we do play in the bed but realli...no sexual intercourse or wat so ever...worst of all...we weren't officially attached...as in his not my steady boifren n i'm not his steady gerfren...den...the problem started...my bez fren too was in luv wif him...well...tat's not the real problem...in the end...we sort tings out...everiting was fine... but wat i realli did not expect was a bigger problem was surfacing...he said tat his mum has took notice of our relationship tat wasn't...he oso said tat...his concentration can nvr be on his studies anymore...coz... there was ME!!! i realli din expect our beautiful dream to turn into a nitemare...den he said those words..."i'm soorie dear...but i haf to let go of u...for now...but i promise u tat i'll be back to make u officially mine after the major exams"...wif those words...he tore my heart in pieces...since den...we nvr tok again...i onli noe tat we kept on stealing glances at each other...tat's all...oh god...i miss terribly...i miss his warm embraces...his husky voice...his innocent smiles...i miss him!!! n todae is his birthdae...i folded a few hundreds of cranes for him...i put them in a bottle...i din gif him...well...at least not personnaly...i asked sum1 else to help me put it in his bag...
now i haf a few questions to ask:
+ did i do the rite ting by not giving him the prezzie personally?
+ does he really luv me or juz wanted sum1 to play wif?
+ should i wait for him until the major exams are over?(tat's like december next year!!!) the problem is...i haf not been promoted...so tat means...my major exams will be the year after his...n tat means...he's graduate earlier den me!!!
WAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?????:confused:
well u see...there's tiz guy tat i haf a crush on early tiz year... erm...let's see...we sat together in clz...we hang around each other alot(as in play a fool) n we also exchange letters...at first i told myself to treat him as a fren onli coz i noe tat it's impossible for me to get him to luv me...at most...i can onli admire him...so on n so forth...den as we exchange more letters...he began to turn mushy...he started asking abt my past luv affairs...wat type of guys i go for n stuffs like he miss me whenever i'm away frm skool...maybe u dun see the mushiness n all but the fact is tat tings grown verli differently as time goes by...den we started confessing our luv for each other...n we developed such a great fondness tat we are practically inseparable...we realli cant seem to live a minute without having each other anywhere at sight... phone calls were made n blah blah...we did everiting tat a couple...except for making luv...actualli we do play in the bed but realli...no sexual intercourse or wat so ever...worst of all...we weren't officially attached...as in his not my steady boifren n i'm not his steady gerfren...den...the problem started...my bez fren too was in luv wif him...well...tat's not the real problem...in the end...we sort tings out...everiting was fine... but wat i realli did not expect was a bigger problem was surfacing...he said tat his mum has took notice of our relationship tat wasn't...he oso said tat...his concentration can nvr be on his studies anymore...coz... there was ME!!! i realli din expect our beautiful dream to turn into a nitemare...den he said those words..."i'm soorie dear...but i haf to let go of u...for now...but i promise u tat i'll be back to make u officially mine after the major exams"...wif those words...he tore my heart in pieces...since den...we nvr tok again...i onli noe tat we kept on stealing glances at each other...tat's all...oh god...i miss terribly...i miss his warm embraces...his husky voice...his innocent smiles...i miss him!!! n todae is his birthdae...i folded a few hundreds of cranes for him...i put them in a bottle...i din gif him...well...at least not personnaly...i asked sum1 else to help me put it in his bag...
now i haf a few questions to ask:
+ did i do the rite ting by not giving him the prezzie personally?
+ does he really luv me or juz wanted sum1 to play wif?
+ should i wait for him until the major exams are over?(tat's like december next year!!!) the problem is...i haf not been promoted...so tat means...my major exams will be the year after his...n tat means...he's graduate earlier den me!!!
WAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?????:confused: