CanadianBellaGina01
10-26-2001, 08:49 PM
Currently i am single. My last message was asking for advice on weather or not to go back to my Ex. He said he loved me and he told all my friends he wanted me back.
BUT i found out he got another g.f. after he said he would always be true to me (and die for me if it came to that). He made a mistake, and i met her. She is exactly like me in personality. The reason my Ex didn't want me back anymore is because i didn't want to have sex with him. I guess a younger girl was more convienient. I am 17 (hehe just had my b-day), he is 20 and his new girlfriend is 15.
He has known her for a month (they have been having phone sex) She lives in another country. I don't understand !!!! We were together for a year and friends for a while after. (we have actually met and gone out in REAL life). He threw that away for a month with a younger girl of phone sex? TO HIM her "sex" was more love then my LOVE. :0(
She doesn't love him, i know this for a fact. He lied to her the entire time saying he was a pilot and sent her pictures, I sent him for weight loss managment, of models i thought were attractive ("to get in shape for me") Their relationship was based on a bunch of lies!!! And i didn't hear any of this from HIS lips. He was a coward, and phoned me after i talked to her, to hear me crying on the phone. Then he said he didn't love me, and it implied that he never did and tried to use me for sex. Which didn't work out for him as he planned.
(I've talked to her for a lengthly period of time to find out ALL the information on this since i didn't believe it and he wouldn't have told me about her)
I always loved him (after we broke up i loved him as a friend) and when i found out he found someone i was happy for him. Until i found out he was having relations on the phone with her while saying the same things to us (promised love and marriage).
I loved him for who he was, and i thought we were totally honest with each other (To me he was perfect). I guess he didn't really love me like he said. I guess loving him with no sex ruined the relationship.
By the way, i talked to him and had an honest talk after i was done feeling completely BURNED and hurt. Then left him cold after he had nothing to say but "sorry" and he admited he didn't love me and loved her more than i could "understand". He said he had "feelings" ... sexual feelings that he felt, that "made" him do it.
Hearing all of this made me feel it was all MY fault and that I was the one that did this to myself. That's why i dropped him COLD. I don't need that sort of pressure on things i know i shouldn't be doing (until marriage).
I know it was the right thing to do. But i still feel so heart broken and i want to cry everytime our song comes on the radio, even though he didn't love me (and expecially that). He was so warm and tender (i miss that), and the moment he found sex he got so cold and brushed me off. How do i find a guy that will truly love me?
Words from a broken heart.
-Gina
P.S. Wasn't THIS a great birthday surprise? lol
BUT i found out he got another g.f. after he said he would always be true to me (and die for me if it came to that). He made a mistake, and i met her. She is exactly like me in personality. The reason my Ex didn't want me back anymore is because i didn't want to have sex with him. I guess a younger girl was more convienient. I am 17 (hehe just had my b-day), he is 20 and his new girlfriend is 15.
He has known her for a month (they have been having phone sex) She lives in another country. I don't understand !!!! We were together for a year and friends for a while after. (we have actually met and gone out in REAL life). He threw that away for a month with a younger girl of phone sex? TO HIM her "sex" was more love then my LOVE. :0(
She doesn't love him, i know this for a fact. He lied to her the entire time saying he was a pilot and sent her pictures, I sent him for weight loss managment, of models i thought were attractive ("to get in shape for me") Their relationship was based on a bunch of lies!!! And i didn't hear any of this from HIS lips. He was a coward, and phoned me after i talked to her, to hear me crying on the phone. Then he said he didn't love me, and it implied that he never did and tried to use me for sex. Which didn't work out for him as he planned.
(I've talked to her for a lengthly period of time to find out ALL the information on this since i didn't believe it and he wouldn't have told me about her)
I always loved him (after we broke up i loved him as a friend) and when i found out he found someone i was happy for him. Until i found out he was having relations on the phone with her while saying the same things to us (promised love and marriage).
I loved him for who he was, and i thought we were totally honest with each other (To me he was perfect). I guess he didn't really love me like he said. I guess loving him with no sex ruined the relationship.
By the way, i talked to him and had an honest talk after i was done feeling completely BURNED and hurt. Then left him cold after he had nothing to say but "sorry" and he admited he didn't love me and loved her more than i could "understand". He said he had "feelings" ... sexual feelings that he felt, that "made" him do it.
Hearing all of this made me feel it was all MY fault and that I was the one that did this to myself. That's why i dropped him COLD. I don't need that sort of pressure on things i know i shouldn't be doing (until marriage).
I know it was the right thing to do. But i still feel so heart broken and i want to cry everytime our song comes on the radio, even though he didn't love me (and expecially that). He was so warm and tender (i miss that), and the moment he found sex he got so cold and brushed me off. How do i find a guy that will truly love me?
Words from a broken heart.
-Gina
P.S. Wasn't THIS a great birthday surprise? lol