innerchild01
11-18-2004, 09:23 PM
As i write this, i find it hard to belive it happened. Yet it did, and now i need to find out what in the hell others would think of it.
2 years ago i met a older woman online. She was 33 i was 25, we hit it off chemistry wise well, well enough for my goal of just 48 hours of sex, well pleasure. It was a pick up gimmick and it worked. Well, we met, blah blah, sex was great, She had a job with huge money transfer company making great cash, I went to far with mind games, caused her to run from fear of social pathetic tendencies. Basically, i lost it, tried to hurt myself, and recovered 10 times stronger and better off. Before i had nothing to my name, after that i channeled my emotional mess, and it has brought me wealth beyond what i could have had other wise.
Fast forward 6 months ago, my yahoo account gets a msg from her, not saying it outright, but looking for sex. So of course after much talking and bs, it came to that. Over the course of 4 months, it was more and more frequent. This is all taking place in florida, and during Hurricane Francis, she sought me out to stay with me during it. What followed was surreal to say the least.Then came a make or break point, so engaged with mindgames, it came to a point of me using the theart of self harm and it causing her to have a offical last great sex day for us both to go on our way.
One month later, Her friends warned her of being around me period, she calls me up, invites me over for 2 days at a time, knows i am crazy as all hell, and simply doesn't care. Oh and now we are friends, so its called. This woman represents physical perfection to me, our sex is the stuff of legend, just no real long term possiblities. I know it comes down to ablity beyond other men and sex, it just seems that even that shouldn't jusitfy what is going on....
So what in the hell is going on in her mind... pls any female insight would be welcome here...
2 years ago i met a older woman online. She was 33 i was 25, we hit it off chemistry wise well, well enough for my goal of just 48 hours of sex, well pleasure. It was a pick up gimmick and it worked. Well, we met, blah blah, sex was great, She had a job with huge money transfer company making great cash, I went to far with mind games, caused her to run from fear of social pathetic tendencies. Basically, i lost it, tried to hurt myself, and recovered 10 times stronger and better off. Before i had nothing to my name, after that i channeled my emotional mess, and it has brought me wealth beyond what i could have had other wise.
Fast forward 6 months ago, my yahoo account gets a msg from her, not saying it outright, but looking for sex. So of course after much talking and bs, it came to that. Over the course of 4 months, it was more and more frequent. This is all taking place in florida, and during Hurricane Francis, she sought me out to stay with me during it. What followed was surreal to say the least.Then came a make or break point, so engaged with mindgames, it came to a point of me using the theart of self harm and it causing her to have a offical last great sex day for us both to go on our way.
One month later, Her friends warned her of being around me period, she calls me up, invites me over for 2 days at a time, knows i am crazy as all hell, and simply doesn't care. Oh and now we are friends, so its called. This woman represents physical perfection to me, our sex is the stuff of legend, just no real long term possiblities. I know it comes down to ablity beyond other men and sex, it just seems that even that shouldn't jusitfy what is going on....
So what in the hell is going on in her mind... pls any female insight would be welcome here...