Tabithia
09-30-2001, 05:58 PM
First off I would like to say hello to everyone. I am new and a friend of mine recommended this board to me for my situation.
My name is Tabithia, like my screen name.
To start this problem off, I have been married for 5 years, going on 6. I have two beautiful daughters that I love very much. Any way, I was introduced to one of my friend's friend and I felt something while talking to him. I have never been interested in another guy since I said "I do". this guy is also married with 2 children also. But I have noticed that we have so much in common and have noticed our marriages are almost the same. The more I get a chance to talk with him, I begin to really look at my marriage and why I really married my husband. I have come to this conclusion and its the only one that makes sense to me. I grew up with just a mother due to my father passed away when I was three. My daughter was born before I was married and I have always had a fear of my children being raised without a father in their life. I married this guy for what I thought was love was only truely fear. I do not love this man. Whats even worse is that we have not slept in the same bed for the past 3years. I have either slept on the couch while he sleeps on the bed or vise versa.
For some reason the other guy, by the name steve, has been introduced to my life and now my eyes have turned his way. We both have talked about so much and we both have found eachother attractive and want to be together but its hard. We both feel that passion for eachother. He also treats me like a lady, a real person, someone with feelings. The other day he stopped over to see how the girls and I were doing and he noticed that I had become very head shy when he went to place his hand on my cheek. I think he really knows what is going on in my house when he is not around. He has made comments about "If I ever catch him, he is going to regret it" I have talked to Steve's best friend, who is also one of my best friends, and he says he has never seen Steve like this. That he has really shown that he cares about not only his own children by my children and myself. That he wants to take all the bad stuff away and make it better. If only he could get away from his wife(who has threatened him several times to take his boys away)
I am not fully understanding what is going on here, but all I know is that all day long I think about this man. I wounder. But why would I want to put my wounds onto another person seeing I can not handle healing my own wounds. But he has shown his interest and has even asked to get together with the children just so we can get out of the house seeing we both all really do is stay in the house all day long.
this is the point that I am at right now. The only true love that I have ever know is the love my children give me. So how do I know if I am feeling real love? The love I thought I had was FEAR. HOw do I know what he is feeling and saying is true also?
Any advice to a newbie on this. I am so lost to the world right now and I feel that a trail of tears follow my every foot step!
Tabithia
My name is Tabithia, like my screen name.
To start this problem off, I have been married for 5 years, going on 6. I have two beautiful daughters that I love very much. Any way, I was introduced to one of my friend's friend and I felt something while talking to him. I have never been interested in another guy since I said "I do". this guy is also married with 2 children also. But I have noticed that we have so much in common and have noticed our marriages are almost the same. The more I get a chance to talk with him, I begin to really look at my marriage and why I really married my husband. I have come to this conclusion and its the only one that makes sense to me. I grew up with just a mother due to my father passed away when I was three. My daughter was born before I was married and I have always had a fear of my children being raised without a father in their life. I married this guy for what I thought was love was only truely fear. I do not love this man. Whats even worse is that we have not slept in the same bed for the past 3years. I have either slept on the couch while he sleeps on the bed or vise versa.
For some reason the other guy, by the name steve, has been introduced to my life and now my eyes have turned his way. We both have talked about so much and we both have found eachother attractive and want to be together but its hard. We both feel that passion for eachother. He also treats me like a lady, a real person, someone with feelings. The other day he stopped over to see how the girls and I were doing and he noticed that I had become very head shy when he went to place his hand on my cheek. I think he really knows what is going on in my house when he is not around. He has made comments about "If I ever catch him, he is going to regret it" I have talked to Steve's best friend, who is also one of my best friends, and he says he has never seen Steve like this. That he has really shown that he cares about not only his own children by my children and myself. That he wants to take all the bad stuff away and make it better. If only he could get away from his wife(who has threatened him several times to take his boys away)
I am not fully understanding what is going on here, but all I know is that all day long I think about this man. I wounder. But why would I want to put my wounds onto another person seeing I can not handle healing my own wounds. But he has shown his interest and has even asked to get together with the children just so we can get out of the house seeing we both all really do is stay in the house all day long.
this is the point that I am at right now. The only true love that I have ever know is the love my children give me. So how do I know if I am feeling real love? The love I thought I had was FEAR. HOw do I know what he is feeling and saying is true also?
Any advice to a newbie on this. I am so lost to the world right now and I feel that a trail of tears follow my every foot step!
Tabithia