Upon reflection

[Nadir]

Upon reflection, my shadow shied away
The denial, of them, of me, the pain
It crawled along
Attached
By default

Upon reflection, my shadow filled a void
For them, for them again
Shoved
For me

Upon reflection, my shadow fed
Tacked and sewn on
Parasitical clinging

Upon reflection, my shadow blended
Joyfully with its playmates

It took my place

Upon reflection, I never found it
And it never found me