QuillWriter
08-02-2002, 04:41 AM
Okay, this is sort of long and involved, so here we go:
There's this guy I've known for about five years. His name is Chris. We met freshman year of high school and we quickly became friends. Then we were best friends. Then, along about Junior year, I got up the courage to let him know I liked him, but he let me know he just wanted to stay friends. So we did, but things got a little weird and strained.
Fast forward to the end of my freshman year in college. We start talking more and hanging out more again, when I come home on weekends. Then summer hits and we spend a ton of time together again.
At first I was totally comfortable with being just friends, and that's honestly the way I was thinking of him until recently. I'd just gotten out of a relationship with a guy during my second semester of college, and the guy had cheated on me, lied, and all sorts of stuff.
Needless to say, I wasn't looking for a relationship at ALL.
Then, the last month or so, I start to realize little by little that Chris is paying more attention to me. He's starting to listen a lot more intently, he's remembering the oddest little things I've said in the past (things that Idon't even remember until he brings them up again!), and he's suddenly started wearing this cologne when we go out that frankly just sort of drives me crazy, it smells so nice!
Being the dunce that I am, I'm not noticing this stuff at first. Then it starts to get more obvious: He's complimenting me, finding excuses to touch me, that sort of thing. He's even getting a little jealous of my other guy friends (but not in a possessive way, thank God! Talk about turn offs!)
Then another time we were in Wal-Mart wandering around, and we started messing with stuff in the crafts center. So he picks up this fake red flower and hands it to me. Then he hands me another bouquet of fake flowers.
So eventually, yes, even I clue in! But them I don't want to admit to myself that he likes me. Why, you ask? Because it would mean admitting to myself that I liked him back! (Psycho, I know...) What's the problem with that? I was afraid I was rebounding (even though my ex and I broke up back in January).
So by this point I'm fairly sure he likes me. But to get a little confirmation, I take him into a bookstore where one of my other guy friends works when we were out together. Later, I got ahold of my friend to ask what he thought, and he was like "The guy didn't take his eyes off of you, except to stare me down. He's crazy about you. Go for it."
BUT...
I finally start to think about making my move, and he's like not available anymore. I asked Chris about it and he says he's busy. Umm...okay. Yes, I understand. But too busy to talk to me for three weeks at a time without even a hi?
I'm afraid to bug him because he probably IS just busy. I'm sort of paranoid that he's lost interest, though. What do you all think? Should I go ahead and admit my interest in him again or keep quiet?
-The Girl Without A Clue
(AKA: QuillWriter)
There's this guy I've known for about five years. His name is Chris. We met freshman year of high school and we quickly became friends. Then we were best friends. Then, along about Junior year, I got up the courage to let him know I liked him, but he let me know he just wanted to stay friends. So we did, but things got a little weird and strained.
Fast forward to the end of my freshman year in college. We start talking more and hanging out more again, when I come home on weekends. Then summer hits and we spend a ton of time together again.
At first I was totally comfortable with being just friends, and that's honestly the way I was thinking of him until recently. I'd just gotten out of a relationship with a guy during my second semester of college, and the guy had cheated on me, lied, and all sorts of stuff.
Needless to say, I wasn't looking for a relationship at ALL.
Then, the last month or so, I start to realize little by little that Chris is paying more attention to me. He's starting to listen a lot more intently, he's remembering the oddest little things I've said in the past (things that Idon't even remember until he brings them up again!), and he's suddenly started wearing this cologne when we go out that frankly just sort of drives me crazy, it smells so nice!
Being the dunce that I am, I'm not noticing this stuff at first. Then it starts to get more obvious: He's complimenting me, finding excuses to touch me, that sort of thing. He's even getting a little jealous of my other guy friends (but not in a possessive way, thank God! Talk about turn offs!)
Then another time we were in Wal-Mart wandering around, and we started messing with stuff in the crafts center. So he picks up this fake red flower and hands it to me. Then he hands me another bouquet of fake flowers.
So eventually, yes, even I clue in! But them I don't want to admit to myself that he likes me. Why, you ask? Because it would mean admitting to myself that I liked him back! (Psycho, I know...) What's the problem with that? I was afraid I was rebounding (even though my ex and I broke up back in January).
So by this point I'm fairly sure he likes me. But to get a little confirmation, I take him into a bookstore where one of my other guy friends works when we were out together. Later, I got ahold of my friend to ask what he thought, and he was like "The guy didn't take his eyes off of you, except to stare me down. He's crazy about you. Go for it."
BUT...
I finally start to think about making my move, and he's like not available anymore. I asked Chris about it and he says he's busy. Umm...okay. Yes, I understand. But too busy to talk to me for three weeks at a time without even a hi?
I'm afraid to bug him because he probably IS just busy. I'm sort of paranoid that he's lost interest, though. What do you all think? Should I go ahead and admit my interest in him again or keep quiet?
-The Girl Without A Clue
(AKA: QuillWriter)