Lessons Learned

[emerald00]

I was young, so full of fun.
I idolized you,
You consumed my world.
Endless nights of chatter, or mischief.
You were the Big Brother I never had,
I learned from you,
everything you taught me, even though we are apart.
I carry them with me through my life.

You have taught me that alcohol is not the answer to all your problems, it creates more.

You taught me that drugs really are bad for you.

You taught me that suicide is not the end of pain, but the beginning.

I am thankful for these life lessons,
but you could have just told me,
you didn't have to show me.

[katty]

I got a shock when i read the last paragraph. Is this a true story?

[emerald00]

unfortunately yes it is, this is my favorite i have have ever written

[katty]

:( I 'm Sorry.

Do you mind if I ask what happened? Don't tell if it will sadden you a lot, i understand.

[emerald00]

ok , it was my cousin, when i got to know him real well and we became best friends, he was fine, as time went on he go more and more depressed. He meant the world to me, but he was slowly going downhill, he told me that he was gay, and i thought that was what brought his depression on, well, after a few yrs he started to disappear on me, alot, he would leave the state for months at a time and not tell anyone where he was, he would also write me letters tellin me that we shouldnt be friends, or that i wasnt a good friend to him, later on, for my 21st bday we went out and he drank way too much, he ended up in the hospital becuz he was tryin to jump outta my car and said he was gonna kill himself, so we called 911 and they took him to the hospital, afterwards he confessed that he aslo had a problem with drugs, he would call me up @ 3 am and tell me that he drank rat poisoning, and i would rush him to the hospital, i live like 40 minutes away from him, but he wouldnt let me call 911 cuz of his dad. everything that he did, slowly broke me down, he took a sweet innocent lil girl and introduced her to a dark and gloomy world, on the plus side he is still alive, but the suicide attempts were far more than enuff. I believe that God put him in my life to teach me these lessons, we are no longer friends nor family, he was making my aunts and uncles think i hated them and told me they hated me, so hes not worth my friendship, he called me a while back but i wasnt home, he spoke with my mom and i never called him, he sent me xmas card telling me to call him cuz he had changed, but i just cant. i have come to far, its a shame really.